Blog Archive

Hello! - 12/22/24

Heyy blogirls~! It's your Webmistress Jemma!
As you can see, I've done a complete site overhaul! I've been talking about it for a while and now I did it. There's only three pages, pretty simple site, but that's the point. The area for the blog post is also very small so I don't end up yapping too much and sharing too much personal info. I can save that stuff for my diary. I'm definitely going to refine the site a little more, and in the blog archive I might put some blog posts that I really liked from old versions of the site or something, but I needed a fresh start. This is my fresh start! I love sunflowers, and I love all the feelings they envoke for me, so here we are! Anyways, stay tuned!

-Jemma, 12/22/24

End of the Century - 12/25/24

Hello blogirls, it's Jemma. Today's blog post is named after a lyric from the Ramones song Rock 'n' Roll Radio. I don't know why, but the lyrics just ring so nicely in my ears today, it's the end, the end of the seventies, it's the end the end of the century. It's not the end of the century in the seventies, it's not the end of the century now. It's always weird the days after Christmas and before the New Year. Even the day of Christmas, and Christmas Eve have their bits of bittersweet weirdness. It's all beautiful though. I'm still feeling uneasy about overhauling the site, but I need to trust myself that it was the right thing to do. In life, I'm very content with how things are going :)
Have a good Christmas!

-Jemma, 12/25/24

American Flag - 12/27/24

Good evening web people, it's your webmistress Jemma.
So, 2025? I hear a lot of people my age saying it's gonna be a big year of change. I have a feeling it will be for me too, but I also am not a big fan of thinking about the future. Earlier I was thinking maybe five minutes to a few hours ahead at most. I try to keep my thinking moderately grounded to to moment. It's better that way. Right now I'm revisiting my top songs of 2021 from my old spotify account. Lots of Parliament / Funkadelic, lots of The Electrocutes / The Donnas, lots of Le Tigre / Bikini Kill. I'm looking forward to the new year. I gotta keep a positive mental attitude. Just tired. But yeah! Good day, good month, good year overall! I'm still defining to myself what I want to put on the website and what to throw into my diary. Gotta stay a little mysterious for all you webgirls and other readers! Till next time!

-Jemma, 12/27/24

Sonic 3 - 12/28/24

Helllo blogirls, it's Jemma, queen of everything and your (hopefully) favorite webmistress. I just got home from watching Sonic 3 at my local theater, and God it was everything I could have wanted it to be. It makes me want to play the games more. I've never got super into them, but I could. I might buy this Princess Peach gamecube controller that I saw at the local used shit store and use that to play the Shadow the Hedgehog game. Anyways, I worked with some good co-workers today. It was busy, and it was a 9-5, but I'm happy and content. I enjoyed this final Saturday of 2024, and I know I'll enjoy so many of the New Year. Have a beautiful night webjems!

-Jemma, 12/28/24

frustration? - 12/29/24

Heyy blogirls, it's Jemma. I had a not so great day of just feeling off, but thats okay! We all have our off days. Tomorrow is my last day of work for the week and then I can get into non stop partying for the rest of the year. I did get some random stuff done today. I think I'm just tired from staying up late and eating like crap. I'll go drink some water. Atleast I shaved my legs! That usually makes me feel a little better about things. I have a lot of thoughts, but I really need to reserve those for not random internet strangers. On a whatever else note, I can't believe my Mom is able to watch such shitty TV all the time. Of course, I can't really speak, I've just been watching Daria. Okay, bye!

-Jemma, 12/29/24

soul - 12/30/24

...I love spotify, don't get me wrong, but we've lost a certain degree of something with it. Now I know there's like the whole thing about artists not getting paid- and that is bad, don't get me wrong- but that's an age old phenomena. You think they paid artists like Robert Johnson or John Lee Hooker right? When have artists ever been treated right? Thats not what I'm talking about right now. I'm talking about weird blues and soul compilation albums, and compilation albums in general. I know they still come out, but it's just not the same. I sound like an old timer, but it's true, its what I believe. Those stupid seeming compilation albums, often overlooked in many scenes, stoop to the depths of my existence...

-Jemma, 12/30/24

The January Songbook - 1/1/25

Happy New Year blogirls and webjems! I'm planning on doing a lot this year. Right now I'm revisiting Blind Willie McTell and hanging out. I recomend the Blind Willie McTell 1940 album to anyone. This album to me is unlike anything else. It is enriching. It is important hhistory. Anyways, it was a late (but very fun) night last night, so I deserve the rest! 2025 is such a grand sounding year. A quarter way into the century. And we're still in the twenties, which in the context of the roaring twenties is quite grand. Yesterday I watched A Complete Unknown and quite enjoyed it. I also played guitar a bit and did a lot of stuff. Very good day. Today will be too. Until next time!

-Jemma, 1/1/25

Angels - 1/3/25

Well, it's working. I've been oversharing quite less over the internet. It being making the blog post process more tedious and limited.
I begin to see the past clearly as I stare into it's soft stoney face. A time of May flowers blooming. I know there were problems, but now I refuse to see. I only want the beautiful red-orange and aquamarines, the runs on the beach, and the beauty of the Spring.
I still remain in the moment, but there's quite a bit going on. It's all in my head. I'm doing fine.

-Jemma, 1/3/25

Little Queen of Spades - 1/4/25

Today I cleaned several gigabytes of shit off my computer. That "shit" being all my google photos photos and videos, which I downloaded and took off the cloud. I moved them all to my hard drive and then deleted them. Today I also did some volunteer work at a kitchen (made a lot of sandwiches, cut a lot of brocolli), and drew for a bit. I drew The Beatles while listening to The Kinks.
There's been some rocky complexities in the road of transitioning as of late. I'm really happy to see a lot of my friends be able to get on HRT, but I know I can't for a long while for so many reasons. It doesn't really matter though.
I also started my new diary today. I finished my other one. I still am feeling uncomfortable on the internet, and maybe a little uneasy in general.

-Jemma, 1/4/25

1/5/25 - 1/5/25

Words sink like stones in my heart getting to the depth of my soul. Sticks and stones break my bones. Words hurt me too. Words like sticks scratch the surface building thicker skin. Just because they don't dig down doesn't mean they don't hurt.
Anyways, onto a more normal blog post style. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! I gotta go back to school tomorrow. I'm starting my new college class though, so that'll be something. I also watched I Saw the TV Glow today. I really don't like the director, and the movie freaked me the fuck out. Lots of feelings.

-Jemma, 1/5/25

To May My Heart Belongs - 1/6/25

My heart belongs to the beautiful month of May, its technicolor dreams and rainy skys. My heart belongs to May, break ups belonging even further beyond. My heart belongs to May, and may it always. May, the month to make my year. I see now the hardest times retiring to their place in the history books. I see now things fade black beyond a year of parting. I see now the beauty of the present, as it puts the past further behind. I see now the beauty of the sun as it shines upon my face and recall. I recall the reason I could never turn away. I look to the jubilant face of life, and I within the creases of her smile I see. Life's beautiful smile, I shall not leave her till she puts me down, when she, life, takes her rough hands and passes me unto the cool breasts of death. All in the sun's rays this I see.

-Jemma, 1/6/25

Dearest Internet, - 1/10/25

Well, I have little to say. Little to say. I was ill for three days, and then rose to return to school. I'm struggling to blog lately due to this sickness, and some strange feeling that has grown inside me. I fear to share to the internet, this thing I once held so dear. It has turned. It has shifted to a bleak darkness. This lives not in my heart, but my mind, for in my heart all is jubilant and free. In my heart it is everything I once believed it to be.

-Jemma, 1/10/25

Snippets - 1/11/25

..and I keep having these horried dreams after the incedent, and i can't seem to stop them. It started close to the subject, but now it just keeps snowballing and snowballing... and then I told him you're gonna rip.. and then I was horrified... I can't seem to get started on.... and I have so much homework, but at the same time so litte... still don't feel like... maybe I'll redo the website again??

-Jemma, 1/11/25

Tell Everyone About It - 1/13/25

Today I'm going to format things like a normal blog post, because that's just what I'm going to do, because that's what I've decided. I've already listened to so many different artists, and its only 7:48 in the morning. It is exam week, and I'm not really too worried. Most of my exams are looking easy. I'm only upset that my pen has run dry so early. That's alright though, that is alright. Right now I'm listening to Thee Headcoatees, because I'm a headcoat girl. I also was listening to Bjork a lot this morning. I have a substitute teacher in my class I'm in right now today, which is kind of annoying because I like the normal teacher and normal ways. Off to do my work!

-Jemma, 1/13/25

Little Miss Winehouse Pt.2 - 1/14/25

I was going to try and hold out from getting into Amy Winehouse again until February, but can one really control the phases of one's life? They really come and go on their own terms, so here we are and I'm knee deep in her discography relearning and revisiting her songs. I feel like there's not enough buzz about her guitar playing. Some of these chords I've never seen (probably because I'm not too familiar with jazz). So there is that. It's now officially one month to Valentine's day though, so I feel like the Winehouse phase may be perfectly timed. All will fall into place as it is meant to be. Either way, I should probably do something productive (such as finish my Ethics homework for the weekend).

-Jemma, 1/14/25

Queen World (Wide Web) - 1/15/25

Dear internet,
I just finished one of my two exams for this season, which proved incredibly easy and only took me about thirty minutes. In about an hour I will go home and chill out until I need to go to class. I've been listening a lot to this playlist I made called AFTGP2, which stands for Another Fucking Trans Girl Playlist 2. The first edition featured a lot of music from Pokemon Black 2, Technotronic, the Challengers soundtrack, Le Tigre, and the only two K-Pop songs I like. This second edition is mostly Lil' Kim, Ice Spice, Ayesha Erotica, and more Pokemon music. But yeah, been pretty down the rabbit hole with that one. If there's any dolls out there (or just kick ass girls) reading this, hope you enjoy it too. I've also been really down with the Ayesha Erotica song Celebrity. Ciao!

-Jemma, 1/15/25

Queen of Cheap Thrills - 1/16/25

Good morning my beautiful beautiful citizens of the web, it's your (somewhat) favorite webgirl and webmistress Jemma here to bring you the news. I think I'd do pretty decently as a news anchor woman. I just would need to look like I was made of plastic. I could do that! I probably won't though. But who knows? I could!
In other news, I've been getting a lot of messages, lots of followers, lots of things in general from the little community of Neocities. It's amazing to hear all this feedback and see that I truly am not writing into the void, and it's been wonderful checking out everybody's little corners of the web who have been leaving me these splendid little notes. Its great to see! Neocities has been quite the receptive place to my intentions, and I'm glad to have found it. It's my little field of sunflowers.
Wrapping up this post, towards the start of this year (last week and a little before) I was getting quite into Big Brother and the Holding Company, and yesterday at my local used shit store I found their album Cheap Thrills, which is my favorite. It's sweet! So I've been listening to that more. I do believe all thrills to be cheap. Hell, I'm just a very cheap person. I'm okay with it too, I think there's beauty in the inexpensive. Anywho, this is where I leave you dear reader. Venture on.

-Jemma, 1/16/25

A Girl and Her Spoils - 1/17/25

Hello wonderful blogirls (and readers in general), it's a beautiful day. The sun has peaked out perfectly from the forever clouds to grace the snow with its bright, and I'm here to witness. I'm just enjoying it. All that I had to struggle with has faded, and I made it! It's time to enjoy the spoils of my work, that being a moment of peace and other niceties.
And speaking of niceties, I hit the jackpot lately. Yesterday my co-worker was saying he was gettin rid of some of his old stuff, so he gave me his old X-Box360 and Wii U (which is like WHAT)!!! Its like, the coolest fucking thing. I could go on and on on this, but I'm trying to keep posts short lately. I also got some free CDs from my connections, which I'm exploring right now (starting with a Dixie Chicks CD). The only one I really knew and was excited about was a Kelly Clarkson CD, which my brother is gonna have to suffer through loll. Anyways, hope you all are having a great day out there on the internet. Byeee!!!

-Jemma, 1/17/25