3/1/25:
Hihi! I'm back my webjems!
My Abscence - 3/1/25
Hihi! As many of you readers may have noticed, the site has been down since the 21st. I was going through a brief three day patch of derealization and then knew something had to change. The change isn't quite done yet. I have a good bit of reformatting I want to do with how I present this home page and the blog portion. I have added a good number of pages back to the site. I'm trying to recover the homeiness that the site had before I crashed it out in late December. This is still part of the Sunflower site, but I'm done limiting my blog posts, and I'm done depersonalizing and cryptifying. This site is a raw piece of me, a beating heart and a bleeding limb. A face like no other. More change is yet to come. Thank you readers for returning. You aren't the reason I'm here, but I always welcome your gaze.
-Jemma, 3/1/25
3/2/25:
Watching the Oscars :P
My Return! - 3/2/25
Hellos internet, it's Jemma, and I'm back and betterish than ever! Yesterday I launched the majority of the site's new updates, but I didn't launch the complete new blog (which you see here). This page used to be called the blog archive, but now I just call it the blog. I'm excited to today launch this new format of the blog, and the home made background quilt texture. This quilt resides on my bed. It is from my late grandmother whom I loved so much.
I'd like to explain why I've brought back so many elements of the site. Yesterday I said how the first half of the Sunflower update (which I launched in late December) was "depersonalizing and cryptifying". This isn't wrong. I did intentionally cut down on myself on the site. Now I'm coming to understand that this makes no sense. This is a personal site, and a personal blog. While I can regard my privacy and safety, I can't take down the old blogs forever. They're on the wayback machine. I also can't pretend to be something I'm not, and hide myself. Like what was starting to happen then there would be no blog. I want there to be a blog. This is why I won't be limiting myself.
Also I wanted to note that around this time last year I had just changed the site to the purple update of the site. I didn't realize this until far after I decided there needed to be a change (which happened around my derealization episode from the 19th to the 21st, and carried on in reactivity in days following till now ish). Maybe its something in the air around this time of year.
I'm watching the Oscars right now. I'm gonna get going, I also want to go eat a cookie. BUT ALSO BEFORE I GO I'D LIKE TO SAY I INTERVIEWED CHANDLER OF POCHEMUCHKA FOR AN INTERVIEW FOR ERIK HOUDINI'S SITE AND I'M ALSO GONNA B HOSTING THE INTERVIEW ON MY SITE! STAY TUNED, IT DROPS WEDNESDAY!! Okay, byeee!!!! Stay lovely webjems.
-Jemma, 3/1/25
3/3/25:
I wanna watch TV real badd
Seventeen - 3/3/25
I often find myself yearning to be home, occasionally even when I am. Right now, and possibly the rest of the day will be like this. I'm really excited to hang out with my friend, but I'm also yearning to be home. Once I am home I'm gonna have work I must do, and this will last me quite a while and I'll be too tired to take part in activities I'd like to by the time I'm done. Instead I'll probably do my little workout (gotta stay snatched and such). Then I might watch an episode of AP Bio or two. I really want to finish watching the last episodes of Serial Expiriments Lain, which I've been going crazy about. Friday I watched the first half of the anime (about four episodes), but then decided to slow down as I wanted to savor something so good. I am excited though to hang out with my friend. I'm also really happy with how the site is right now. It feels more me than ever (which is what I've said almost every update). That doesn't discredit it though. I am ever evolving and ever growing. I allow myself to change, and it is beautiful. Anyways, that's enough garbage talk. I've got life to live and things to do (and hopefully soon) TV to watch. Byeee webjems!!
-Jemma, 3/3/25
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