Hello hello, it's Jemma. I'm watching Twilight, I love these movies. They're peak comedy to me. I wish I was a vampire sometimes. Today's blog is gonna be kinda short because I don't have much to say. It's a really chill day. I went to work. Went home. It's cozy vibes. I feel like I had something I wanted to write about earlier but then I got distracted. Oh well.
Anyways, that just about wraps up today's blog. I have this gif for you today though because it felt like it matched today's vibe. Surf the web safely, I wish you luck.
-Jemma
10/7/2023
Welcome back to the internet. It's pretty early in the morning (for a weekend) and I'm already awake. I work at noon, so I want to get as much time to myself as I can today. I did most of my normal routine (waking up, getting dressed, eating, doing the dishes) and now I'm already writing on the blog. This is kind of my warm up. Getting my thoughts on paper. It feels healthy. I might go do some collage after this, after all, I just got some new materials from the local book store. It was like 50 cents a book (and I got a sweet old shonen jump magazine!). All of my books I bought were also covered by old credit I had from my comics I used to sell. Anyways, today is a rainy day. I'm going to enjoy the weather rather than dread it.
That wraps up today's blog! I will see you all tomorow.
-Jemma
10/6/2023
Looking back at yesterday's blogpost I have no clue what I was on yesterday. Teenage angst and sadness goes wild. I think I gave my dad too much shit in yesterdays blog. Well, thats the past, todays a new day.
Today's fit is sick. I'd like to think I look as goth as I can get (without like, makeup). I'm so glad it's Friday, and I think tonight I might go downtown with my brother if my parents don't have other plans. I need to get a sketchbook and a book from the library. I have a friend at the art store downtown who can give me a discount. This brings me to a point about the blog: I'm not telling you guys where I live or the names of any of the places I live. I want to remain anonymous in location. Imagine I live in the town from the Gilmore Girls, because it is kind of like it. A small town, not a ton of people. Do you guys ever have people that you look up to? And then they give you compliments? Yeahh, I jsut had that. Theres some pretty cool people out there, and I like their style. I want to steal it lol. Anyways, happy Friday to all of you readers.
Music I've been listening to: More Descendents... Hahaha. I've been listening to them so much I'm practically obsessed. I was also listening to ZZ Hill and Donnas this morning because they both have Friday songs. Gotta make little things I do or listen to each day of the week so I make them unique, more fun, different, and therefore more livable. Right now I'm just listening to my On Repeat playlist because its got some bangers on it. I also listened to the full Mallrats soundtrack between today and yesterday. I also listened to this song Fender by Nep because it was on one of my friend's playlists I was checking out. Its interesting. I'm not sure if I like it, it has this weird tinge of sadness that a lot of this certain type of music have. Once again I have to add the links once I get home, school wifi hates me..
Anyways, that just about wraps up today's blog. Sorry about the weird vibes yesterday, hope you all have a great friday :)
-Jemma
10/5/2023
My dad hates my Demonias. He thinks they look like clown shoes. He makes me mad. I don't know why I'm in school. This is a really good opportunity, one that not many people in the world get. I have so many opportunities and I am so thankful for all of them. I need to take advantage. I should be happy. Whats the point? I go through highschool to get into another school so I can pick up a spot in a work force. I will work until I die. Finding happiness in every day is hard. My classes are stressful, but not in a normal way. English seems irrelevent. Art is directionless, and I'm beginning to hate my own creations. Science and Gym are unexpected difficulties. Personal Finance is the only class that seems to have practical application, but only benefits that apply to scraping by in our soceity. Who tells us how to be happy? Who tells us the reason we are here? I want to be myself but I can't support my own identity with the level of confidence and self esteem I have.
-Jemma
10/4/2023
Today its gonna get deep, prepare yourself. Alright, lets go. People say some weird shit. You do something that they don't find normal and they might take a couple different routes. None of this is science, but its just what I notice. They either attack it, learn about it, or ignore it until it impacts them. Non Hetero-normative identities are one of those things. As a gay person (as a broad category), I feel it. No, I'm not opressed. No, I'm not complaining. These are notes on things that I have personally expierienced. Today somebody told me they support what I was wearing, they were cool with it. They said they just don't like it when people make it their whole personality... What does that mean? I'm not sure. The other day somebody also told me they were cool with what I was doing, and that we need to respect everybody even if they don't agree with it. Do they not think my identity or existence is ok? Thats fine I guess, I can't do anything about what other people think. I can only control myself and my thoughts. It still bothers and confuses me though sometimes...
That stuff out of the way, I've been having a pretty good day. Academics are a struggle sometimes, and I think I'm burning out a little bit, but otherwise its been smooth sailing. Last night I had a really good call with one of my friends and we busted into the scene... scene. It was fun. Today I get to just chill after school too! Maybe I'll work on the site some more. I'm not sure what I want to or can add, but I'm gonna cook something up. As long as I'm doing these blog posts every day I'll be happy.
As far as music goes, I've been listening to this weird song called I'm Finally Free or something... He's like this rockabilly country performer that has like maybe five songs on spotify. I should really dig deeper into him. I've also been digging into some of Jimmy McGriff's funky stuff, last night I was trying to listen to the Emo Boy song (but discord music bots are trash), some Bill Withers, a mix of country artists, and last night I was really jamming to some Chuck Berry. I LOVE CHUCK BERRY!!! If you don't know him, go google him. Listen to him. He INVENTED rock n roll. None of your punk, emo, goth, garage rock, rockabilly, rock, rock n roll, scene, or other sub genres would exist without this man. Max respect, God bless his soul. Theres my Chuck Berry rant of the day lol.
Anyways, thats all for now. I need to remember to put the links in later (I can't on the school computer because of spotify being blocked).. Until then,
-Jemma
10/3/2023
Well, I'll be honest. I'm not really looking forward today, its gonna be one of my long days. I know I shouldn't rule today off like that so early in the morning, but who am I to care. There's going to be good parts as well as bad parts, but I just don't want to do the work of going to school and college and everything. Getting home super late? No thanks.. There's ways I can make it better (like wearing a cool outfit), but I chose to dress really chill today. No gothgirl partying, just subtle disapointment of an expectedly long day.
This morning the only music I've listened to so far is rockabilly.. Maybe thats why I'm not looking forward today lol.
Well, its looking like a short blog post today. I'm just doing it in the morning because I won't have time to write later (unless I do, then I guess you're just getting cheated out of your daily Jemma shitposting). Thanks for stopping in,
-Jemma
10/2/2023
Anatomy class is so boring (can you guess where I am?). Last night I had so many ideas of things to write about on the blog today but now its all dry. Maybe its cuz I'm kinda hungry. Good thing lunch is coming up. Actively trying to spice up the website with some little gifs and buttons. Its fun!
Music I've been listening to: I'm listening to my Japan playlist actively, its a bit of a crazy mix but its long and has a lot of good shit (lots of Guitar Wolf tho lol). I was listening to Nirvana again this morning (I'm such a basic bitch). I also listened to the Beatles (again, I'm a basic bitch).
I wonder if I'll ever be applying for a job and they won't hire me because of this website... Anyways, thats all.
-Jemma
10/1/2023
WAKE UP! ITS THE FIRST OF THE MONTH! I can't believe it's finally October! I'm not a ton of a Fall person (although I do passively enjoy it), but I'm glad it's October. I'm done with September, good month but very stressful. September is for starting school and going to the lovely mall. October is spooky as hell and kinda fun. I'm not sure what I'm going to be for Halloween, but I'll figure it out. I've been a vampire for the past two year so I ought to switch it up this year. Perhaps I'll be a pirate. I do love pirates
Music I've been listening to: I've been checking out this song from the Mall Rats soundtrack, and just other random stuff. Nothing much new in the music department. I have been trying to learn Wild Wild Lover and this song that the White Stripes covered (original by Blind Willie McTell) because both songs are in an alternate tuning and I do NOT want to tune my guitar back (it's easy, I'm just lazy).
That's it. I'm done. Bye.
-Jemma
9/30/2023
I've made it a second day! Hurray! I've done blogs in the past and they've never survived. Maybe this will be different.
The hard thing about blogging like this is I'm not sure what I do and don't want to share. I could talk about what I'm doing today, but is that too up in my business? Will anyone even see this? Does it even matter if they do? Whats the harm in people knowing about whats going on in my life?
But lets get real here, my legs HURT LIKE HELL! Required gym classes are killing me (now you know I'm in some form of school, more power to you). I wouldn't say I'm super fit (I'm an art kid and a goth/punk/unlabeled alt kid, of course I'm weak) so this class has been a rude awakening. I don't hate the idea of being a little bit strong so I don't fall apart when I'm old, but its hard lol. I'd rather spend my time wandering the mall than going to the gym.
Ok, I should probably go eat lunch now, best wishes.
-Jemma
9/29/2023
Welcome to the first blog post on my website and welcome to Jemma on the Web! Lets start with some basics.
First off, my name isn't actually Jemma, thats just an online name so yall don't stalk me. I'm paranoid, I know, but it happens. Hopefully if you're traversing the internet and Neocities you aren't one of those creeps, but one can never be too cautious.
Second off, there is no topic I will or won't be guaranteed to cover. This is my blog, and that means my terms. My terms are also not having to follow grammar (even though I'll try my best).
Music I've been listening to: My Fall Playlist, Nirvana's popular album (I know, I'm basic, but I'm just checking it out. This one song from the Mallrats soundtrack got me in the mood), Weezer's blue album (again, cuz I'm basic)... and some other shit. You don't realize how much pure emotion is in that album until you've cried in the dark in your bed at night to it a few times (not that I've done that, I would never). If you want to know what I've been listening to lately (as in over however spotify does their time tracking shit) click this link. Thats about the end of my music rant for today.
You never know how good you have it until its gone. Keep what you care about close. Safe travels, thanks for reading.
